November 28, 2007

  • WRAPPING UP AND LETTING GO

    Today is going to be a stay home day and I'm doing the happy dance!  I hope to get caught up on laundry and wrapping presents. The past few months have been so hectic I'm really looking forward to it. The first thing I'm wrapping is mine. Hubby brought in a big JC Penney box before he left for work this morning and sat it on the dining table. Talk about an exercise in self control! He announced, "This is your Christmas present, so stay out of it," and just walked on out the door to work!


    Yesterday I took Moma for a pedicure then to get her new glasses adjusted again. We met hubby for lunch then picked up the Christmas spray for Daddy's grave. Then afterwards I made a Wal-Mart run without her. When we visited the cemetery Moma didn't cry or even mist up like she usually does. Instead she smiled wistfully and said, "Daddy, maybe next Christmas I'll be with you." Then she proceeded to lecture me on how I wasn't to be sad when she died. She's been talking alot about dying lately. Letting go doesn't seem to be my strong suit. I flat out told her she was not allowed to even think of going home to be with Daddy until after Christmas. I've been telling her for months that I had a miserable Christmas last year and I was going to have an excellent one with her this year. I think if I had that to remember I could handle her death anytime the Lord chooses to take her on, even it it is the next day. One of my friends buried her Daddy yesterday; I should have gone to the funeral, but was afraid I'd fall apart. I've been to some funerals since my Daddy died, but no Daddy funerals. So I took food to the family last night instead.


    Happy Wednesday y'all!  

Comments (7)

  • Yay! You get to stay home today, enjoy it girl!! I know you will....fun wrapping the gifts, put some Christmas music on too!! I need to start my shopping this week. Been super busy with working, and I am bushed after coming home.

     I love ya,have a fun day!

  • Glad mama is doing bettter.  On Christmas eve. we make a point of playing my dad's favorite gave where you pass the package to the left and right while someone reads a story.  He aways laughehd and tried to trade gifts.  It is our way of keeping him with us.

    I am still decorating.  Like the ornaments on the tree in the living room.  Little Man is fascinated.

    Got my laundry done yesterday in the midst of decorating and watching the kids.

    The weather is supposed to turn off ugly again ....windy with rain this weekend and mountain snow.

    I have to take Ms. Pat to run errands this morning.  There goes most off my day.

    Hope you have a great day and get to rest a little.

  • Wrappingm presents? You're way ahead of me. But we did put up our lights outside, they looks so nice when I take our dog for a walk at night.
    I pray the Lord doesn't take Moma home to soon. HUGS

  • Btw, I love your site decorations

  • Sounds like your mom has given herself something to look forward to -- maybe by NEXT Christmas.  Letting go is never easy, but do have a happy Christmas with your mom so you can remember her enjoying the activity -- you've given her a good goal.  Take good care of yourself!

  • Love your new look!!!  You are so very creative.  Seeing your site makes me wish my tree was up.  I will decorate in the minimial frame of mind despite having a very pretty nativity scene I made when I was doing ceramics.  I will get out my tree decorations this year.  Last year I used the boys sports buttons as decorations.  (For those who have these buttons, I cut off the pin, strung a ribbon through the holes in the back and glued 2 back to back, put trim around the outside to hide the seam and it looked really good!!!  Several years of sporting events put several decorations on the tree.)  Of course, we left for our cruise before Christmas so I didn't want to come home to lots of things to put away. 

    Doesn't matter how long they get to stay, when a parent dies you are never "ready".  Seeing their body go down does make it easier.  I still grieve more for mother than I do for daddy and that is probably where I was in life and knowing my boys would (or could) know her or even have 1 memory of her.  All I can say is to keep doing what you are doing and you will have no regrets when it is time.  Maybe one more thing, don't borrow tomorrows trouble, live each day to the fullest.  Love you a

  • This site was... how do I say it? Relevant!! Finally I've found
    something which helped me. Thank you!

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